Attempted Timeline 07/01/2025
In the fall of 2023 I began to feel the warning signs that historically had lead to sudden hospitalization & stepped down from my management position at Pearle Vision in order to focus on my Apprenticeship and lessen the scope of my responsibilities
This bought me time, but I still ended up on PFML in the spring of last year and started intensive medication pans with various doctors
I had a sense that this was my last chance to get a handle on my condition. Each crash was progressively worse and came with additional permanent side affects.
New doctor diagnosed me with ADHD and medication finally made a difference, but came with it’s own unique challenges
- You’ll see a trend in support groups for folks with ADHD where they report the freeing and life changing affect ADHD medication made in their life
- Equally, you’ll find numerous reports of how this only highlighted the extent that other underlying comorbid conditions may play in the patients life.
- “Like putting on glasses for the first time, it was made clear how much I missed in spite of near constant attention”
The Psychiatrist treating my ADHD made CPTSD a clear candidate for the source of unresolved issues
- This felt right, but the treatment options presented and her understanding of what I was trying to report felt off
I’d attempted
6/23/2025
- Submitted FAFSA Officially
- Submitted Application for SNAP & Cash assistance
- Need to complete phone interview
- Spoke with Manda
- Created banner templates
- Cleaned up and organized reference materials for easier coding
- Organized scattered health notes and created health.info & health.index for better ref. experience
- Created Communications Tracker in order to use for all important phone calls and communication notes.
- Set up To-Do for tomorrow to keep up forward momentum 6-24-25
- Created account with W3 for free coding recourses
Misc. Proud 'O Resume June
Only a few months ago, I found navigating Discord or OneNote to be an arduous task. At times, the threshold required to navigate Google felt impossible. A lot more than tech felt impossible. It may have taken a couple of days to finish <Link Resume>, but I am so proud of the outcome. It is far from the “perfect” copy of what I see in my minds eye, but every single word, graphic, and icon is a reflection of incredible cognitive recovery.
YouI MADE something. And it now lives as a marker I can look back on. <LOL, “like a tattoo”, I got a sense of. Made me chuckle> Not to mention I need to get the job hunt moving…Todo
- Remember to add link to resume when uploaded to site assets
LVM "Feeling Overwhelmed" w/ Manda 06/30/2025
LVM For Manda; Was feeling overwhelmed and left a tearful message. Made clear I was not in crisis and was just looking for reassurance that I’m doing everything I can. Told her I did not need a call back necessarily and the act of leaving the voicemail was all I needed. It’s been really hard making everything happen, and that not translating to actionable differences was really wearing on me
- Found a Dr. appt for Thursday on the phone call immediately after
CC Workforce June?
Misc. Crayon Memory 6-21-2025
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experienced false recollection trying to remember why I left MVECC without telling Susan. Like a memory in crayon of telling LC that I was leaving and had lined up a job at Pearle
Link to original
- The “crayon memory” affect feels familiar even if I never have identified it as such
- An uncanny dissatisfaction with the resulting outputs, or necessary inputs always leads to brain falter or Dissociation
fnoteThreadsOfDissociation scribble.I Want to Go to School To… fnote.I wish… UAT.Application fnote.SamsungNotesDrop fnote.2018.index